I haven’t written any inspirational entry for at least a week. The unfulfilled feeling consumes my mind. I was somehow all over place, and doing trivial tasks instead of focusing on a few important ones because I have not yet figured out where to go and what to do in next school year. I am a student; my job is to go to school of course. But which school is the question for me now. Next year, I will become a senior, I still have two distributions to take, and 3 history classes to finish my major. That is to say 5 more classes in my senior year, and I will be done with my college life. It is scary to think about.
I have another plan, but I have been debating with myself whether I should go studying at another place for a semester. That will refresh my mind, my body and my social life for four months. I have been thinking of its possibility since May, which means it is an underlying assumption that I will take an absent leave for almost five months now.
The only drawback is where I will get the money to finance that luxurious plan, studying at an over-priced university somewhere in the Western World, which I no longer feel alienated, but truly home. I need to consult one more person – my mom – for this plan. I have to ask for her consent; otherwise, she will not finance my education inevitably.
To conclude I quote a saying that really captures my life in the past week:
"In the absence of clearly-defined goals, we become strangely loyal to performing daily trivia until ultimately we become enslaved by it." -- Robert Heinlein, American Novelist